Update

So I have been told it has been awhile since I have updated my blog…So I figured I would try and update it just to make some people happy. Well since the last time I updated this lets see……hmmmm Oh yeah we moved. We went from the nice peaceful country to the somewhat noisy city. I really miss the country but I don’t miss the house that much. I look at where Brooke and I are today and I have to say I think we are truly blessed. The more I think about it the more I think we went about this the right way. Brooke and I started out our marriage by living in Gardner, it was nice only being 10 minutes away form Olathe and from Church and from our friends. But then Brooke dropped the bombshell on me. She told me that the family that was renting her grandma’s old house was going to be moving out and that her grandma had offered to let us rent it out for a freaking steal. Well even at the rent she was going to charge us I was not happy about moving all the way down to Princeton. I didn’t think we could afford the gas of driving back and forth as much as we would be and I sure as heck didn’t want to move from all of my friends. But I did it…I wasn’t happy but I did it. Flash forward 7 years, I can’t believe we have lived down here this long, and I absolutely LOVE IT!! I told Brooke the other day that I NEVER want to move back to the city again. Ottawa is a nice town and I am finding out that it is pretty quite. All In all I am happy…Brooke is happy and things are really going good for us. We are now living next to our friends Carrie and Charlie in which we are VERY VERY much excited about. I am thinking that Charlie and I are going to have some movie/documentary marathons coming up. Well that’s all I can think of right now….

If you don't think this is funny

the there is something wrong.

Me lately

You can listen to this song at the bottom of this post

There are things that I'll never understand / The road I've walked that has made me who I am (Romans 8:28) / Reminiscing with the picture on the wall again / Reminding me just how far away I've been
I'm looking to lay my burdens down / They're something I can't carry anymore (Matthew 11:28) / I'm longing to lay my body down / Beside still waters and find rest for my soul (Psalm 23:2-3)
My knees are weak and my mind is tired (Hebrews 12:12-13) / I've followed every dream of every liar / If there's a place that you've prepared for me that I belong (John 14:2-3) / Then let these dry bones arise to live and breathe your song (Ezekiel 37:5)
What once was dead has now come alive (Ephesians 2:1-5)


This song has really touched me lately, I find myself listening to it over and over I decided to post these lyrics along the verse references because I think it’s better that way. I keep thinking about all things of that have gone on in my life that have made me who I am, and it always seems I get brought back to this point of realization of how far away from God I really am sometimes. I count how many times I feel like my mind is tired from following everything I have heard. I so desperately want to lay my burdens down but it’s so hard. I know I need to lean on God more but I find it more and more difficult each day. I feel like I am constantly fighting off temptations and instead of running to God I try to fend them off myself and ultimately wind up failing every time. One verse that helps me in hard times is more of a prayer. It’s psalm 25 1-5……


1[a] To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul;
2 in you I trust, O my God.
Do not let me be put to shame,
nor let my enemies triumph over me.
3 No one whose hope is in you
will ever be put to shame,
but they will be put to shame
who are treacherous without excuse.
4 Show me your ways, O LORD,
teach me your paths;
5 guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.

Ok that is my soapbox for today. I hope whoever reads this has a good day!

This pretty much sums it up

This reminds me of me and my friend Scott

Scott would be the nicely dressed up on and I would be the other guy..It think it's pretty dead on.

I know WAY to many people like this...

what I think

Well I have a lot on my mind so here goes one of my rants. And If I offend someone I'm sorry but this is how I feel. There have been a few things going on lately that have really got me thinking . Why is it that Christians are always labeled by the secular world as hypocrites? It seems that when something goes wrong or someone makes a decision that isn’t right and a Christian tries to help they automatically get called a hypocrite? I think to answer this question we need to look at the church as a whole and put ourselves in the shoes of the secular world. If you step back and look at the church as a whole we can easily find the answer. We have so many people in this world walking around professing to be Christians and then completely deny their faith by the way they act. I mean when you have some one like Pastor Jeremiah Wright saying things like “The government gives them the drugs, builds bigger prisons, passes a three-strike law and then wants us to sing ‘God Bless America.’ No, no, no, God damn America, that’s in the Bible for killing innocent people. God damn America for treating our citizens as less than human. God damn America for as long as she acts like she is God and she is supreme.”.
How is the world not going to see this a hypocritical? I mean everything he says he veils in Christianity and makes it look like that’s what all Christians think. There are many other examples of “popular” preachers that give Christians a bad name. Fred Phelps, Pat Robertson just to name a couple. But I think we need to look a little closer to home, and look at the individual parts of the church that make the body.
I was raised in church my entire life. I accepted the Lord as my savior when I was 8 years old. I didn’t quite fully understand the full meaning of being a Christian but I knew I sinned and I need to be forgiven. My walk with the Lord was strong for the next 3 or 4 years, then I hit Jr. High. I still had all of the same friends that I had in grade school but things were different. I realized I was using bad language more and not praying as much as I used to and as I entered high school things only got worse. I drank quite a bit in high school and then I got into pornography. Things at that point were just about as bad as they could be, until my friend Paul got interested in church. I took him on a friend day and a few months later Paul gave his life to Christ. The next few months were hard for me because Paul changed, I didn’t have my drinking buddy anymore. And not to mention Paul already knew the bible better then I did, this pushed me back to God faster then anything else could have. I started to change and low and behold my witness started to come back.
That is just a part of my testimony. There is a lot more I could say but I just can’t type it all. But the reason I put that in there is because in all things I want to be transparent. I think that is where the problem lies in the local churches. There is no transparency in most churches, and this is where the hypocrite word comes in. I think people come in off the streets who have never been to church before want to know that the people who are teaching them are real. Not just the teachers but the Media guy, the praise and worship leader, the deacons and elders and the list goes on. The last thing you want to happen is for someone to come to church for the first time and say..WOW that person goes to church? I saw them the other day doing this and this, or I saw some pictures of them on the internet that looked they weren’t Christians at all. I am guilty of this. Sometimes I do things that I know aren’t pleasing to God. But I know in my heart I need to change. I don’t want anyone to call me a hypocrite. It’s hard to live a blameless life but as someone who holds a position in the church I feel I owe that to God. So before the next time you go and do something or say something you know is wrong..think about it and ask yourself , Is this bringing glory to the throne of God? Trust me, it will humble you real fast. It did me.